want me to leave?

it's true when people said, a person's goodness, kindness can be forgotten when he/she did one mistake. see, this is not about a person but it's about a school. this school have so many lovely students. but because of few bad students, makes someone like me want to leave this school immediately.

i know things will not always going as i wanted.i wanted to love everyone of them here, but i have limitation. i love the good kids, and the bad kids too. from my academic purpose for them, i want all of them to succeed. it's true, no matter how bad they behave.

some of them want me to stay, some of them want me to leave. i know i have to leave, i will leave this place. i just hope to have good time with my kids during my last days here. can't i?

i will just ignore those who don't like me. i gave my best already, if they still don't like me, what can i do? end my life? no way. God is stronger and bigger that the obstacles i'm facing. i'm gonna live my life for Him.

for the kids who don't like me, so sorry that i still have a week to make you sick. guess what, i'm gonna just ignore you. and i hope you're happy with your behavior now cuz you gonna regret it.

God bless ya'll!

Say it Again :)

i fall in love with this song 'Say it Again' by Marie Digby! her voice is so nice and the lyric is beautiful! alright, before i tell you more about how i feel when i listen to this song, let's get to know Marie Digby a bit. :)

Marié Christina Digby (born April 16, 1983) is an American singer, songwriter, guitarist, pianist and actress. well, she's actually half Irish-American, half Japanese. She have some Japanese look, isn't she? and she's so pretty! :) She is known for her acoustic cover version of "Umbrella", which attracted attention on YouTube in 2007. Digby had released 3 studio albums, including one Japanese cover album. These albums have spawned 5 singles overall.

Studio Albums

• 2008: Unfold - #29 (Billboard)
• 2009: Second Home
• 2009: Breathing Underwater - #183 (Billboard)

Singles

• 2007: "Umbrella"
• 2007: "Bring Me Love"
• 2008: "Say It Again"
• 2008: "Stupid For You"
• 2009: "Avalanche"
• 2010: "Feel"

Her songs was also used in many other media such as film and TV series. she multi-talented, isn't she? she can sing, write lyric, compose song, play guitar and piano, and even acting! :D i love you Marie Digby!

to know more about her, click this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marié_Digby

okay, about the song 'Say it Again'. the lyric she wrote, i can say that it's what every girl feel. :D here's the lyric:

Say it Again-Marie Digby

Thing about love, is I never saw it coming
You kinda crept up into me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

When you tell me you're in love

Say it again

now girl, can you feel what i feel when i read this lyric? :D but sometimes it isn't all about boys, right? yeah, i do love someone, but in my life, i wanted the love of my Creator more. i want to hear He call my name, tell me that He loves me. i believe that everyone wanted the same thing. :) so this song, i dedicated to my loves and to Him who worth all praises and worship!

God bless ya'll! :)

lyric from: http://www.lyrics007.com/Marie%20Digby%20Lyrics/Say%20It%20Again%20Lyrics.html

Counting Days

finally, it's my second last Monday here at SMKBJ, Shah Alam. to tell the truth, saya tak sabar lagi mau kasi habis ni practical, haha. i'm teaching for free! and that's killing me cuz i don't have much money. *sigh*

well, i went to class just now at 2.55pm-3.30pm. i told the kids that Puan Normariam (their original Math teacher) will come back to school on Friday. and the kids reaction was: "yeah!!!!...." oh, okay, i see, they don't like me here.

i'm not sad, just a bit disappointed in myself. maybe i didn't teach them good enough to make them like me. (biasa la kalau temperamen intim ni...suka buat orang senang) i may have a loud voice, clear pronounciation, but i'm not a good teacher. i mean, i can't teach goodly, maybe. i don't know. haha. i maybe a good...ermm...presenter? haha. if someone make the script for me.

i'm starting to think about my future career again. maybe i can't be a good teacher here because of the students and condition here. maybe i can be a good teacher somewhere else. but all students are the same, isn't it? their background maybe different, but most student have one common 'interest'----malas belajar. teacher have to motivate them, but i can't be a good motivator for students, maybe. i really don't know!!...

i'm still looking for the right path i should go. should i stop looking? should i stop thinking about it? i remembered somebody tell me, make decision before it's too late. make decision for your life, don't let your life make decision for you. it's your life. it's my life. but what decision i could possibly make when my life involve others? i mean, my family. my decision might affect my family. what should i do?

i wish i could be more 'tegas' about my life. i wish i could be like 'this is my life, you have no right to interfere my business'. i really wish i could. but why can't i?

hmmm..that's all about my thought lately..friends, pray for me ya! God bless ya'll!

Korean Drama~ Take care of the Young Lady

Title: 아 가 씨 를 부탁해

Also known as: Take Care of Agassi/ Take Care of My Lady/ My Fair Lady

Previously known as: 레이니 캐슬 /Lady Castle

Genre: Romance, comedy

Episode: 16

Broadcast Network: KBS2

Cast:

Yoon Eun Hye as Kang Hye Na

Yoon Sang Hyun as Seo Dong Chan

Jung Il Woo as Lee Tae Yoon

Moon Chae Won as Yeo Eui Joo

Synopsis:

Of the high-rolling top 'hot celebrities' of the wealthy upper class in Korea's high society, Kang Hye Na is the one desired by the men, feared and hated by the women. Being the only successor to the largest conglomerate company, Kang San Group, Kang Hye Na has both the looks and the background. She is the owner of the ‘Lady Castle’ and lives a ‘princess-like’ life with her servants.

Until one day, out of pure coincidence, she comes across Seo Dong Chan who turns her life upside down. Not only does he make her do community service, he even kidnapped her... and now he's the new household manager!!! Even after stepping on him, crushing him and biting him, he still doesn't run away. She may have finally met her match...

Review:

i just finish watching this drama last night at 3am! :D what i like about this drama of course, is the comedy, haha! (i like to laugh). actually, in the synopsis (i found online---above), they didn't mention about the rich girl, Kang Hae Na, could not experience the warmth of family when she grow up, which actually makes my tears fall when i'm watching this drama. because of the, she become strong-headed, selfish and the world revolves around her. after she met Seo Dong Chan, she change little by little. ans she didn't even realize when she starts can't live without him around. i'm thinking, is that possible to happen in the real world?

for me, the story goes on smoothly and after each episode, i can't wait to watch the next (high level of curiosity!). i like the working attitude of Manager Jang and Maid Jang in this drama. they serve their master (Kang Hae Na and her grandfather) whole-heartedly, no complains even if their master mistreat them, and keep loving, serving their master. they think about what is good for their master and will try their best to smooth the way when their master's facing difficulty. that's the working attitude all of us should have. still remember? "tunduk pada autoriti". that's the value we should have in everyone of us. no cheating, complaining. (i'm trying to work it out myself. :D aja!)

i love the development of Kang Hae Na and Seo Dong Chan's love story. haha! :D why? because i'm the romantic type. (ewwww) and i dislike when Yeo Eui Joo and Lee Tae Yoon become 'bad' in term of trying to get their love one back (Yeo Eui Joo like Seo Dong Chan, Lee Tae Yoon like Kang Hae Na). i like the ending though, happy ending! (which eveyone like :D i guess)

i also like the family value in this drama. no matter what happen and whatever you do, you know deep in your heart, you love your family. like Kang Hae Na love her grandfather, Kang Su Ah (Hae Na's Cousin) love her family (although the whole family's attitude is like 'ewwwww, is there any family like this on earth?') i love my family. no matter what happen, i love them and will never forget them. just like Hae Na's grandfather, although he strongly resist Hae Na and Dong Chan's relationship, but at last, before he died, he grant his granddaughter a gift of freedom of find her happiness. to know what happen, you'll have to watch the drama! it's fun! ;) but don't adsorb the bad value like having bad intention, do bad things etc.

o ya, one more value i learned from Dong Chan is forget about the past and keep looking, moving forward. he forgive people who did wrong to him and Hae Na's family, he understand their difficulty. i believe there's are people who are force to do something wrong but have no choice because of their condition/situation. but however, for me, mistake is a mistake, sin is a sin, no excuse. but because we are forgiven, like Dong Chan forgive and forget, God also forgive and never judge our past, so let's keep looking, moving forward.

i think that's all for this drama! watch it, it worth. :D i'll post more about Korean dramas next time. til then! :D God bless ya'll.

Bubble in Blood?....

today, during class, Dr. TKB told us that if our blood vessel contain too many gas bubbles can cause pain and bending of joint, and even death. wow... is it true? well, i don't know. me myself experience pain at the joint of my feet.

so i said to my friend: "hey, i think there's bubbles in my blood cuz i experience pain in my joint."
she replied: "hah... tak lama lagi tu. (your time has come)" (laugh)
me: "oh no.. not yet got married ni." (laugh)
she: "eh, bukan kena btaubat ke? (isn't (you) have to bertaubat?)"

what she said makes me think. we will never know when will we die. is there anyone can tell you? i believe there's no one could. i've been thinking about dying lately. what if i die tomorrow? ot the next moment?

the same question goes to you...
what if you die tomorrow? or an hour later? a minute later?
have you love enough?
have you apologize to the people you've hurt?
have you live your life to the fullest?
have you do the things you want to do?
will you regret things that you have done?
have you done enough good things to make yourself have a place in Heaven?

...what will you do if u know the time and date you die?

and my last question is...
Do you know where will u be after you die?...
are you safe?...

find out the truth because The Truth Will Set You Free. :)

i love ya'll out there and pray that you'll found the truth that will set you free.

God give us the opportunity to live, the chance to experience the beauty of life. He placed the people around us in our life to teach us to become better person, to learn to appreciate them, just like we appreciate God. we are now being shape and prepare for our next life, so live your life right.

Appreciate life, everything in it and everyone around you cuz they're precious. the moment we shut our eyes forever, there's not turning back.

God bless ya'll!! ;)

Today!!!!

haha...today i start blogging again...walaupun tidak apa yang mahu dituliskan/diluahkan/diperkatakan,but i'm sure that i'll have something interesting to share with you guys out there (if u're reading my blog!). well,i get started because i saw my beloved friend-midah's blog (haha). beside,this is one way we can use to communicate,tell oppinion and share thought,isn't we? :)

today is microteaching day. subject: Mathematic. huh... i'm trying to make me feel good. i can do this!!! (hopefully) to be a teacher, we need to be creative. well, if i dig deeper and think harder, i'm sure i'll be it. God.... help me!! (sending S.O.S to God)

i believe in what God will do to me, on me, in me. i believe everything that happened will make me a better person. i just have to be strong!!...so do you guys and girls (and Mr. and Mrs. :D ) out there. God have good plan for your life, just BELIEVE. (there cn be miracle when you believe...lalala).

God bless ya'll!