I'm a complicated person, but it's not hard to understand me at all when you do it little by little..

"Little By Little" - Marion Raven

A mean reply, so I scream
Another fight about nothing at all
And then we cry and forgive
Promising that we will nerver fall again

I know this much is true
Hey

[Chorus :]
Little by little
I think we'll understand this
Little by little
I think we'll comprehend it
Little by little
You'll take me as I am yeah
Little by little

[Chorus 2 :]
It'll take some time to find it out
To make a change, you gotta change your mind

Cause it's hard enough to get a grip
It's hard as it is without us being left behind

I know this much is true
Hey

[chorus]

I don't care
If you don't say it
I don't care
Cuz I know it
No, we don't care

[Chorus 2]

I don't care if you don't say it
No I don't care
(little by little)
If you don't say it
I think we'll understand this
yeah
(little by little)
I think we'll comprehend it
(little by little)
You'll take me as I am yeah
(little by little)

(little by little)
(I think we'll understand this)
We don't care at all

(little by little)
I think we'll comprehend it
We don't care
(little by little)
(You'll take me as I am yeah)
(little by little)

(little by little)
(I think we'll understand this)
(little by little)
I think we'll comprehend it
We don't care

[fade]

source: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/marionraven/littlebylittle.html

JB ride~

today, i went out with Kak Ikmah, Kak Azah and Imah to search for the place we will go for interview next week. i was stress for the past week so it was a good way to let go the stress, by getting out of this damn place and see something that is not related to school, or work, or relationship.

we went to skudai then to Angsana and the Zon. the place i like the most from all the places we've been today is selat tebrau. i feel so relax when i see the sea, and i can see Singapore just opposite the place where i sat.

i forgot all the troubles and problems for a while when i see the great art of God's creation. i saw sea, the blue sky and i even saw stars! it's usually hard to see any stars at any bright city, but i saw them tonight. i feel so content for a while. i was so amazed by God's work.

i want to cheer myself up, i want to break free from the troubles and problems that had 'ikat' me all this time. i know i can do it if i surrender all to God. i'm waiting for a miracle from above..

Run To You-Whitney Houston

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find

Oh a girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you, I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me

Oh what's the sense
Of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

I wanna run to you, I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away, run away, no

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears, no
If you only knew how much

I wanna run to you and I wanna run to you
Oh won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/w/whitney-houston-lyrics/run-to-you-lyrics.html )

this song accurately represent my condition now.

i want to run to somebody, but there's no one to run to.

the person i hope would care about me the most, ignore me, said that he don't have enough time for everything else, that he's tired. i feel so worthless.

i guess that's what i get for hoping too much from someone, hoping that someone would be a perfect one for me, that understands me and care for me. did i hope wrong?

just one person, and he can make me feel like the world is ending soon. what is happening to me?

it's time to move on. i don't want to be a loser, someone who can live without that someone else. i know deep inside, i have the strength to move on and to live without him. it may not be easy but i know i can do it.

to all the girls out there, people around us may make our life hard but it will only be hard if we let them trouble us.be strong, take courage. i found my peace, have you found your peace?

Run to God, He's always around for you.

Life @ Ulu Tiram, Johore.

just the thought about this can make me cry. i hate this place. i hate what i'm doing in this place. i hate to live here.

i even hate the situation im in now. i never experience anything like this. i miss my family, i miss my home town. i've been away from them for almost 6 years, but i never felt this way before. the desire to go back is very strong. the desire to leave this place is even stronger. maybe it's because of this damn place, the people here, that makes me want to go back home. what i've been through here for these 5 months, turn me into someone i never want to be-demotivated, silent, empty-hearted, hot temper.

i cant think right anymore, about God's purpose for me to be here, about this crazy job that im doing, which had killed me inside. i dont know who to trust, i have no one here. i need help yet i cant find any. what am i suppose to do here? what should i do? if i cant fit in this town,most probably people in this town cant fit in to my way either. some people here expect me to be a perfect person who knows everything, can do everything and willing to do everything. some expect me to have better manners. some like to accused people without knowing the reason why someone did/say something. selfish people. some just wont listen. just what the hell am i doing here in this damn place?!

people thought they know me. but they dont. they make prediction, assumption. im not the kind of person who talk much when strangers are around me. i cant even make myself talk! and they say i'm arrogant, just because they don't know me. i'm not the kind of person who express feelings well, and they say i don't have manners, just because they don't know me. well, of course i don't know them either.

i cant do whatever they want me to do. i wont do it. i hate this place, totally. i hate it!

however this place had open my eyes to see a wider range of mankind's attitude. i can now see clearly the kind of person i am too. i realize now i'm growing up. no, i'm a grown up. people have expectation to me, just like i do. but the rudeness i experienced in this place is more worse than any place i've been, and i guess i've become rude too, because of this place. this place does nothing good to me. this place turns me into a person i never thought i'll be. and i need to get out of this place,or else i'll be crazy.